A child is born that cannot be kept,
The mother, exhausted, silently wept.
But not too exhausted
to feel the rage,
Of being forced, into a cage.
Family members leave you no choice,
Leaving you without a voice.
as if you've been defiled,
Beginning to feel like nobody's child.
minute the baby is out of the womb,
A nurse ushers it out of the room.
The mother is never allowed to see,
own child after delivery.
After all she might change her mind,
Become attached, become intertwined.
sure all papers are filed,
After giving birth to nobody's child.
process begins to find a new home,
As the baby lies in a crib made of chrome.
Every year many couples apply,
many they must deny.
Those who qualify are put on a list,
After years of waiting they still persist.
A short list is quickly
To find a home for nobody's child.
Many times they tried
on their own,
Never succeeding for reasons unknown.
Giving up, they finally opt,
Deciding it's best if they adopt.
their family they need not postpone,
Good news finally comes on the phone.
The perspective parents eagerly smiled,
custody of nobody's child.
The baby delivered right to their door,
first year the agency will monitor.
Visited each week by a social worker,
Making sure you're not a shirker.
that year never giving up hope,
Examining their lives under a microscope.
After a year they've passed their trial,
them the rights to nobody's child.
Finally the child they can call
Excitedly calling relatives, on the phone.
The first thing they do is give a new name,
the babe from certain shame.
Changing records that act as a shield,
Records that remain permanently sealed.
their trial final papers are filed,
Legally adopting nobody's child.
the real trial is about to begin,
Figuring out how to fit in.
Not all family members are overjoyed,
In fact, some are outright
Including someone from outside,
Some comments are downright snide.
How easily the family seems to
At the thought of including nobody's child.
though you are very young,
Already feeling quite high strung.
The one thing on which you've obsessed,
you don't look like all the rest.
Lying awake all night long,
Pondering the idea you don't belong.
Many thoughts remain unreconciled,
the thought of being nobody's child.
And then it finally happens one
Your parents sit you down to say.
You are so special, for it was you we picked,
For it was not in your
mother that you grew and kicked.
Confronting the truth, the process begun,
Explaining you're not like other daughters
Realizing you're not really their child,
Beginning to feel like nobody's child.
Left alone to ponder what all this means,
Slipping into emptiness as deep as a ravine.
question arises, what did I do wrong?
To be taken away from where I belong?
Circumstances remain unknown,
whole identity has been blown.
Keeping secrets all the while,
Telling no one you're nobody's child.
Knowing there's no place you really belong,
A feeling that remains all life long.
alone even in a crowd,
Being followed around by a big black cloud.
Trying to escape all the emotional pain,
for ways to alter your brain.
As a teenager, acting very wild,
Rebelling for being nobody's child.
Figuring out who you are,
Trying to heal the emotional scar.
For the truth you must search,
doing your own research.
Piecing together all of the clues,
Finally finding some really good news.
emotions finally get riled,
No longer feeling like nobody's child.
finding and ready to meet,
Hoping to somehow feel complete.
Finally the past begins to unroll,
Finding answers is good
for the soul.
But too much time has already elapsed,
Hopes of belonging already collapsed.
Leaving some feelings
Feeling, again, like nobody's child.
the realization finally sets in,
Within neither family do you truly fit in.
Now that you've physically and emotionally
Family is something you must make on your own.
The only ones that you will let in,
Are those who stand by
you through thick and thin.
Becoming someone completely self styled,
Realizing you are nobody's child.